Yesterday, I had a great but busy day, but at the end of it, I felt a bug coming on. So I did not practice yoga. I woke up today feeling sinus-y, congested, etc, and I realized I needed to rest. So I did.
At the end of the day, I started to feel so much better. So much so that I decided to try some light yoga! I did a video on YouTube entitled “Yoga for when you are SICK” (caps intended) so I figured it was perfect. It was by Yoga with Adriene, a popular user with over 380,000 subscribers! She’s not Erica, but I liked her class! It was gentle, light, and I am happy I did it. Was it my favorite class ever? No. But am I proud of myself for listening to my body and knowing when and when not to exercise? Yes.
Again, this 90 Day Journey has become so much more than just yoga. It’s a lifestyle change, not a fad diet, and with that comes nuance. I don’t feel guilty for missing a day of exercise, and I’m actually letting myself rest. And lo and behold, I’m recovering quicker. I’m learning to stop being so particular about things and ease into life. And for that, I’m grateful.
After a long day of various errands (and my kickboxing aka kick-my-butt class earlier this morning), I was ready for some restorative yoga. So I decided to try Yoga Nidra.
Also known as “Yogic Sleep” this yoga definitely felt like that. There were intense moments where I almost felt tethered to the floor, and others when I had incredibly lucid thoughts. As someone who can’t sit still for more than 5 minutes, the fact that I made it through 20 whole minutes without shifting was a big deal! The last 10 minutes of the video (from YogaGlo) were a bit of a struggle. But it reminded me why I’m so happy that I chose yoga as my 90 day commitment. Yoga means so many different things, and today it meant grounding myself and resting, and that’s completely okay. I can totally see how meditation helps stress levels, and I’m excited to try it more.
I barely eked out my 30 minutes today, but I did it!
I have no idea how I was complaining about yesterday when today (long story short), my purse was taken, then returned, then I was late, lost my phone, found my phone, went to the movies, did yoga.
It was a day that required patience and understanding, so when I realized it was 11:30 PM and I had not done my yoga, I had to be at peace with that. I did Erica’s Yoga for Relaxation and Sleep and it was peaceful and yet challenging.
There were a ton of hip-openers (an area, where I, like many, hold stress and past issues) and since this was a relaxation video, I had to be at peace with it (sensing a theme here, yet?). I could not resist the pain I was feeling in my hips and body. I couldn’t be disgruntled or hate on it because simply, the video wouldn’t let it be so. Erica made me accountable, and I think for the first time in my entire yoga practice, I began to actively let go in a class, physically AND mentally.
I realize that I have a ton of tension in my body that I need to get rid of, and I’m taking steps to do so. This week, I have a body reading with my yoga teacher and I’m starting acupuncture. I know I have pent-up energy in my body and I’m finally willing to let that go. So having to do yoga on a day that could have catapulted me into an emotional tailspin (as anyone who’s ever lost a wallet knows!) was actually the best thing that could have happened. I ended my day at peace by relying on energy that had got me through the day’s earlier stress.
That’s an exaggeration. Obviously, I have written blogs, but I have never been a blogger per se. I couldn’t even keep a diary even after I bought a super adorable Lisa Frank golden retriever journal with matching locket in 2nd grade. And if that can’t make you write regularly, what can, I ask?
Not to continue this blog on a “I’ve never” note, but I’ve also never been one to make New Year’s Resolutions. Seriously. In my 23 years on this earth, I’ve never made a resolution. But this year is different. Since I no longer have a schedule that constantly changes due to school, l felt the need to create my own catalyst for change.
Which brings us to my 2015 New Year’s project: 90 Days of Namaste.
Here’s how it works:
Starting today, I will do yoga every single day for three months. No exceptions. It can be any type of yoga (hatha, vinyasa, bikram, etc), but it has to be at least 30 minutes long and has to be part of an actual class (online or in person) so I’m not just mildly stretching in my room and calling it good.
To keep myself accountable (and, I suspect, introduce me to some pretty interesting people along the way), I will be blogging about it on a daily basis. Nothing necessarily long, just a way for me to check in and monitor my progress.
Why yoga, you ask? Through sweat and sometimes literal tears, yoga makes me feel like the best version of myself. It’s incredibly f***ing hard challenging for me, but every time I finish a class, I feel rejuvenated and more in tune with my body. I’ve always wanted to be strong, toned and flexible, and I have a feeling doing yoga for 90 days will change me in ways I can’t even imagine.
If you’re interested in following along, check back here daily or use the hashtag #90DayNamaste. Here we go.
Day 1: Power Yoga
I’ll keep this short since I just wrote this intro. I kicked off this project with Power Yoga, a class I take at my local gym. It involves holding positions for a long amount of time, and my muscles literally shake every time I do it. Today was particularly challenging, which I took as a sign that I needed this 90 day commitment more than ever. This class kicks my ass, but after doing it, I feel better than I did all week. Day one, done!